It was 4 months prior to me getting fired, but I already felt like a failure both in my career and as a mother. I really knew and felt that it was only a matter of time before my entire house of cards came tumbling down around me. I was depressed, bitter, angry, restless, and felt helpless…not me at all. The day I typed, “I hate my life” in the Google search was one of my most desperate days ever. I knew I was headed for disaster. I felt like I was on my way toward some kind of a breakdown. I didn’t like how I felt and I was desperately searching for a life line. I sent out a soul call that day.
A soul call is a cry for help that one sends out into the universe; sometimes knowingly, most of the time unknowingly. I didn’t know it that day, but when I Googled, “I hate my life,” I sent out a call asking for help. I couldn’t see the computer screen because of tears that had welled up in my eyes; which only served to make me angry. I was sick and tired of crying, hurting, and being misunderstood. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired! I managed to calm myself enough to read the search results and clicked the link that would later change my life. I remember thinking, “Like this is going to help.” It just goes to show how powerful soul calls actually are. Soul calls are like prayers in that they are very powerful and they are always answered, but often not the way we think they will be. For instance, I thought I was asking for help to keep my job. Little did I know that 4 months later it would be a moot point. I was asking for my life to change, and my desperation caused it to happen the fastest way possible!
Things did change– so quickly and drastically since then — sometimes it feels like a different lifetime. All of the things that have happened in that one short year still boggle my mind. Having worked my way through and overcome each obstacle as it came, I know all were for my good. In retrospect, getting fired from my job was just how things had to happen so the change I wanted so desperately could manifest. I closed the door on that portion of my life, causing another one to open; then another, and another, until once again I find myself facing yet another door. Do I leave it closed? Do I open it and walk through? Getting fired wasn’t the hardest thing I would face in that year.
….to be continued…
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Nice to see info on soul calls here, btw. Until now, I think I was the only person to mention them. 🙂
I have always called my inner voice, or intuition my soul voice. I feel that during times of great stress or sadness in my life, my soul is reaching out for help…to someone…anyone…or anything that will help. It makes sense to call it a soul call. Like a 911 call to the universe for assistance. 🙂
Yes, agreed. I’ve always called them that, too.
Until now, it seemed that I was the only one who called it that, though.
Have you read my series on it?
Yes, I did a while back and remembered thinking the same thing; that I thought I was the only one who called it a “soul call”. I guess it’s true what they say about great minds thinking alike. 😀
hehe true. 🙂
I’ve just Googled the term too, and practically nothing comes up.
Love it! So touching she was able to help him! Lord knows I have walked in his shoes!! Thank you for sharing this! It was a gift to my soul to read, and knowing I’m not the only one who has ever felt that way was a tremendous support. Xo